3 things going on right now.. Just one would totally drain my energy a year ago. It is still taxing, but i notice I recuperate far quicker!
1) The conctruction as for clearing my debt will probably change, as some creditors have declined the proposal.. So now things will be addressed in court, making them accept. For me it would mean I will only pay a portion for 3yrs, and will be legally declared debt free.. Now awaiting court date.
2) Finally got in touch with my client manager (somehow that hadn't been desides on or something, been calling for months!). I had a talk about reïntegration into the work field. Maybe I need a medical check as for endurance.
3) Social homing
I applied for a certain construction to be moved up, due to the fact my present situation is badly influencing my wellbeing. My sleeping disorder & sensitivities being a major factor.. Situation being, living in a small family house with 6others, most of them between 19-22, with no sense of resposibility as for cleaning, hygiene, nor feeling inclined to lower the volume of their music. Being their parents age isn't helping much, they're glad to have their own 'rules' now!
long story short.. had a talk with a person of the agency that refers people, as well as a doctor to indeed see if my situation is undermining my health. Yesterday i got a letter..
Both people that saw me state that my situation is indeed not conducive to me and moving is surely recommendable. But, it isn't urgent, nor do they think it is medical. I can just go and live in another house
I pay 290 euro all in presently, max i can afford is 300.. Most rooms start at 350. No subsidiced rooms, that is reserved for social homing.
Being decline helped me to get back in touch with my feelings, I feel stuck.. Victim role waking up again.. Ego is back in the saddle..
So yesterday I went to bed early after a shower.. Mind going on and on, tried to breath and focus on my abdomen.
Today is better, though I am still mad..
Colleagues all point at the immigrants and presently lots of refugees, who will get housed.. I have severe problems with going along with such remarks. These housing problems don't stem from them, but decades and decades of mismanagement by politics and the business world. Eventhough housing has been a problem for years on end.. nothing changes there! Still too little houses and too many offices are build without every being used.. Still now, in this age of working from home and people just about being forced to be self emplyed (new construction big companies, schools, hospitals, love nowadays, outsource and hire just what you need.. no wages!)
Yesterday I wondered if it would help to write a local newspaper.. Would it matter?!
thank you for letting me rant
So these are 3 things that are taking a lot of my time. I do try and be mindfull, which is quite a challenge..
Any tips or support you could give, is very welcome!